Every Moment Far Far Away

I read through my post of the last year. I can't believe what I am seeing. As of now, even with five weeks notice (more if you consider the guidance received with out understanding), I am still screaming for more time..I'm not ready. Yet after reading these posts it is clear to me that ...the need to get my life in order was no fluke, no common prompting, nor some fleeting thought. It was a serious en treatment to be obedient so that... well, I would be prepared. I did work at getting things in order. However, there is still so much more to do. I did throw away, sort, discard, give away and trash so very much. Only there is more. I whittled down my body, still in progress, I improved our nutrition, addressed habits, began to eliminate the distractions in my life, and so much more. It feels like I have done little in comparison of what still needs addressed.  Then comes the soft considerate voice..."take the Holy Spirit as your guide and all will be well". So panic is becoming replaced with peace, fear with faith, and the scripture "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me", is the ever repeating motto.
I was considered and chosen, I was asked/called, I accepted, and then the miracle...Heaven gave me time to chose, to really make it my choice to do. Not out of obligation or responsible membership, but my will, my choice. And then He showed me the preparation of the heart that has been taking place for so many years. That feeling of being ancient and wise beyond any description return for a moment.(I felt that ancient and wise after my son Seth passed away).
I hope that each of you have the experiences I have had with the spirit, the teaching, the testifying, the reviewing of ones life and the validating of the worth of a soul...mine. (which also translates to you!) I am feeling the love of God and my Savior and as this process has unfolded, I am growing stronger.

 I will not doubt, I will not fear;
God’s love and strength are always near.
His promised gift helps me to find
An inner strength and peace of mind.
I give the Father willingly
My trust, my prayers, humility.
His Spirit guides; his love assures
That fear departs when faith endures.

May heaven smile on you today. Hugs, Lisa

P.S. My last post is most telling. Self-Care has become a must. Rhythms and routines more needed and yet I find myself slipping into old habits and feelings. It is a good thing to be kind and loving to yourself. No berating self, create a habit of positive loving thoughts. I read this morning that the best gifts you can give to someone else are Compliments, Praise, and encouragement. I think that is true! And while you are at it make sure you do it for yourself as well. It will become genuine.